When the stars come flickering around,
And moon settles at the heart of the sky.
That’s when I start drifting into the hollow, swirling through.
The hollow that you left behind,
In the corner where you used to reside.
Searching for you throughout, in every nook and corner of this void.
Tears rolling down; eyes piercing into the space above.
Thoughts passing across my head
Accompanied with plethora of questions arising along.
Every Why? Every If? Every How? Goes up in the air.
Not a single minute, not a single second
Not a single breath, not a single heartbeat
Misses without the thought of you,
I fake that smile. The smile that you took away
I cover up all pain. The pain that you left for me
I gaze into nihility. Try recollecting my dreams,
The dreams that you shattered to smithereens.
I keep wondering. Keep on reasoning,
Your being so indifferent after all the affection.
Your episodes of digress
I living your lies, with the clouded trust.
You never understood
My significant leap of faith to believe in you,
Nothing mattered to you
My longing for those words of love from you,
My endurance towards your rigidity,
My holding back the feeling, to share the dreams I conceived for us
My forgiveness for you, even when I was deeply dismayed.
You ripped apart the emotional realm of my heart
Your rudeness squelched my inclination to communicate,
Your stubbornness wiped away every possibility of closeness
You blew cold each time I supplicated for that one try,
Now, your silence gnaws my calmness.
Endings are grim and disquieting
Everything between us died. Bit by bit, in nugatory portions
You never realized… I was dead long before you did
My tears are just the meltdown,
Like the aftermath of that avalanche
Every single ray of hope simply diminished away,
May be, one day….I could rise from my own ashes…Like a Phoenix.
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Love brings many emotions and sadly, broken love evokes such strong and honest ones that many can relate to it.
Indeed Saru. That was so thoughtful. Thank you for dropping by. Hope to see you more often. 🙂